For Losers Like I've Been

loveishere:

i would be content watching ninja turtles and back to the future on
repeat, just as long as i could lay my head on your lap. i would drive
around the world, as long as my fingers were interlaced with yours.
and i really would be perfect, because you deserve the best.

when i talk to you
do you really hear what i’m saying

i love you comes out
but what i mean is there’s no one else who makes me feel this way. i
think i’ve loved you since the beginning.

i whisper i miss you
but my heart wants you next to me all the time. don’t you realize
that it’s not just at that moment, it’s always. every second of every day.
every song, every smile, every raindrop - i think of you.

and don’t think it doesn’t scare me to death
because it does.
it keeps me mumbling these petty, over-used phrases,
comfortable to read and write, say and hear

i can’t keep going with this much space in between us
don’t you get it? i’d pick up my life and move if you’d just ask. i’d be
happy, truly happy, sitting on a worn-out pillow listening to you play
your guitar forever.
forEver.

maybe it’s too much to hear
for the same reason it’s too much to say

but the fact still remains:

you are mine
and i am yours
and maybe that’s enough

(2002)